Sorry! I've been away, then my laptop broke, then I purchased a new one, then that one broke the next day... I'm still trying to get a new one but I have to wait on a refund for the old one... It's been wee bit crazy to say the least!
So... since the last post I've been to Laos, and through Thailand. I caught the travelling bug, so I postponed my flight home, and am going to see Cambodia and Vietnam at the end of term... (I'm going to have to work really hard through July and early August to be ready for my exams in August!) I've done three papers, had huge laptop issues, realised that I've changed, etc etc etc...
Hmm... what's changed?
I've learnt how to be in Christ, well, I'm still learning. Being here, and being in a huge church... not being prominent in it... not doing as much: it's been good to rest, but it was a struggle at first to see where I was in Christ. Although I didn't ever think these things outright, it has become clear to me that my being in Christ is not because I'm on the worship team, or because I'm a youth leader, or because I do all that I do, but rather because of Him, and because of His love and His grace. I am just as much in Christ here, when I'm not doing those things, as I was back home when I was. He doesn't look at me differently, nor does He love me less, nor do I deserve it more back home than I do here.
Ultimately, no matter what I do, I don't deserve His salvation, His love, His grace... I don't deserve to know Him. It's funny (well not really funny) how easily one can slip into finding one's identity in what one does as opposed to what one is.
I think that I've just begun to realise that being in Him, and in relationship with Him doesn't mean just serving Him because I love Him, but that it means loving Him... and that the serving is just something that comes with loving Him. I knew in my head before, but I think I've just begun to experience knowing it.
Honestly? It hasn't been what I expected. I'm sure the rest of my time here will surprise me too. Sorry if I don't post for a while... but no laptop... lots of work... lots of travelling... it means no internet!
Otherwise... I'm really interested and curious to know what has been happening at the midweek meetings at Kings'!!!
That's all for now.
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nice one! :)
hi girl, don't know if you remember me, I am natalie from Malaysia. All of us miss you lots here in kIng's!Miss seeing you and your violin, your bright, lovely smile too:) I totally agree with what you've said. Being away from the comfortable home is not easy at all. But with God being wherever we are is the most comforting fact and despite being miles away from our family and loved ones.Abide in Him and He will abide in you. Things are great in King's. The church are as good as ever, second saturday was fantastic and we are still meeting as whole church every tuesday and thursday evening. Great fellowship and coming together to worship, pray and praise our good Lord. Trush in Him and He will show us the right path:)
do take care of yourselves and have a fun time with your travelling. Dont forget to visit Malaysia too:) May the angels of God protect and go before you wherever you are! God bless!!
Nat xx
Good Post Ee-Reh - Great to have you back. The midweek meetings have been great - really powerful times of fellowship, sharing life, waiting on God, stepping out in spiritual gifts, learning to respond and enjoy His grace and love, flowing in the river of His Spirit.....+ plus lots more!! - God is great and he is doing great things in His Church!
Good to see that you are having a great time. Looking forward to having you back though! It's exciting to to read your discoveries about yourself. Fantasic. Much love xx
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